I wish I could tell you that I started this blog out of a great idea for something positive. I am hoping it eventually leads to that. That is not where the story starts...
I'm a Christian and have gone to church my entire life. I've been close to Christ; so close that I can almost feel His physical presence.
I have also been distant; so far away that I questioned my very salvation.
Although I feel my salvation is secure, I still struggle. It comes in waves of frustration and depression. The valleys still feel deep and dark, but the mountain's peak isn't as high as it used to be.
I trust my emotions more than my faith. I want to stop doing that, but I have no idea how.
It takes almost nothing to crush me... to destroy my joy. Does that happen to a "real" Christian???
Hopefully this "story" has a better ending than its beginning. I guess it all depends on my ability to surrender control and let Him take charge. I just don't know how...
